Light bulb moment

I was reading over my "profile" this morning and it reflects a point in my life when I was feeling utterly, overwhelmingly, wonderful. It got me thinking about what the difference is between then and now. Why was I so happy back then but feel less than grand nowadays? Hmmm.....

Consider this: Back then in my place of happiness, finances were still a stressor, Elliott was hard hard work (even more so than he is now), I was on less antidepressant medication than I am now and Mat and I were not exactly playing out the "happily ever after" part of our marriage. With this in mind, how on Earth was I feeling so positive??? I pondered this for some time and I think I may have come up with the answer. Back then, I was going to a counsellor with regards to my PND. I only went for three sessions but it was amazing. It was a whole hour that was all about me. When I was in that room chatting away, I wasn't anyone's Mum, I wasn't anyone's wife, I wasn't anyone's daughter, sister, friend or foe...I was simply Kate. The real Kate, not the multiple hat wearing multitasking stress head Kate, but rather a vulnerable and honest version of myself that very few people, if any, have ever seen. I spend so much of my life trying to have everything under control, in order, smile about it and pretend things are just peachy, but in counselling, I didn't need to be that person. I got to be me. My counsellor had this amazing way of empowering me and making me feel like I was actually worth something and actually capable of taking my life in the direction I wanted it to go. It was just amazing! Perhaps I need to consider going back for a few sessions to get me back on track....? Hmmm.  

You know, some people say I share too much on my blog but I just think of the saying "people who have nothing to hide, hide nothing". Everything I say serves a purpose for both you, the beautiful reader, and myself. My whole objective in beginning this blog was to be totally, brutally honest about the good, the bad and the ugly of motherhood. It has expanded to take on a bit of an inspirational tone at times, regardless of if you are a mother or not. It also has some lighthearted and funny elements to it and some serious, down to Earth revelations on the inner workings of my mind. I find that any time I really open up on my blog, I get so much feedback from readers expressing that they too have felt this way at some time and, more importantly, that they thought they were the only ones who experienced those feelings! It truly warms my heart and motivates me to keep blogging hearing how my words have helped so many of you. So no, I don't think I share too much, I think I say just enough of what needs to be said :) 


Happy Thursday...and whether you are genuinely feeling happy or not, make the choice to be happy today and I promise you, you will be shocked at how well your day goes!! xox