Nudge nudge

I have not been sleeping well at all lately and I can only hope it is a temporary issue related to my antidepressants. I am having wild and horrible dreams most nights and last night was no exception. The difference was I woke up from a deep dreamy sleep with a fright. I could hear the kitchen stools scraping along the kitchen floor, amongst other unfamiliar night time noises. I woke Mat up to investigate and of course there was nothing to be seen so he came back to bed grumpy about being woken up for nothing. I on the other hand would rather be safe than sorry! Anyway, a short time after he settled back into bed, the inevitable suggestion came from him that we should engage in some 3am grown up cuddles…

Seriously, whose idea was it to make men and women’s sex drives SOOOO different, especially after having kids? Nice joke isn’t it! Apparently, all men need is to know you are awake and conscious and they think sex is on the cards. Good grief, it takes a lot more effort than a nudge and some crass suggestive words to persuade me into a 3am rendezvous. I of course reminded Mat that in consideration of the very little sleep I have been getting and the fact that the kids will be awake in a little over 2 hours, I would pass on his request. He rolled away all sooky and then I politely reminded him again, as I have many, many times before, if I felt like having sex, we’d be having it!

After an exhausting day of running a household and having the kids climbing all over me, the last thing I want is anyone to touch me, but it really isn’t rocket science…some quality time together, genuine interest in my thoughts and conversation, help with the kids and household chores to take a little pressure off my plate and of course a foot or shoulder rub wouldn’t go astray! Poor Mat though, he really has it stacked up against him when you consider some well known factors that reduce a woman’s sex drive:

Antidepressants…check!

Fatigue…I have two young kids, so, check!

Decreased testosterone levels from the pill…check!

There is good news though; once I am off the antidepressants things should improve, once I am off the pill (which I am on for my skin) things should improve and once the kids are grown up and fly the coop, things should improve…there is light at the end of the tunnel J Of course, I don’t think it is quite that bad but if you ask Mat, I’m sure you would get a very different story (don’t ask Mat though…he would kill me if he knew I was mentioning our sex life on the internet!!! Lol)