Fake it 'till you feel it

My motto this week is going to be "fake it 'till you feel it". I am going to ooze positivity in an effort to keep my spirits high. So, good morning everyone J I was at Church last night and the whole theme of the evening was about happiness. I have been attending this Spiritual Church for about a year now and it still amazes me that every address/reading/service is so relevant to my own circumstances! What I have taken away from last nights service is that happiness is a choice we make each and every day. Only we chose how we react to our circumstances and we can chose to either be positive or negative about things. Now, I realise this is a wonderful theory and practical application is a little more challenging, especially when you are feeling as down an depressed as I am. So my choice to be happy today certainly wont cure me and make my life wonderful all of the sudden, but at least it will give me a little more "oomph" to cope with what the day throws at me. Take this morning for example... 

I was giving Elliott his bottle in our bed. I always have a "spew towel" ready to mop up his milk dribbles but for some reason I just didn't do that this morning. Naturally, Elliott decided to vomit in my bed after finishing his bottle, something he hasn't done since he was about 6 months old! So instead of curling up in a ball and crying, I am looking on the bright side. The sun is out, the breeze is brewing thus making it a perfect day for drying sheets. Plus, clean sheet night is undoubtedly my most favourite night of the week (well, more like the fortnight or every three weeks, rarely do I get to wash the sheets every week!). Nothing like clean fresh linen to help you drift off to sleep. Yay for the bright side. 

Then there is the happy fact that the kids slept in until 6am!!!!!! Now that is a bright start to the day J

Amazing how much things can turn around in a heartbeat. I finished typing the above sentence then had to leave the computer to tend to the kids and get us all ready for the day. In that time, I have changed my tune to "screw you happiness". I have done nothing but yell at Sophie for her poor behaviour. She has made a HUGE mess with baby food for her Baby Alive doll simply because she would not wait until I had finished changing Elliott for me to help her. I have just gone to get Sophie's detangle hair spray from her bedroom only to find she has poured it out everywhere (attempting to get it in her cup) so she could spray her room and make it smell nice. I am beyond furious about that because firstly, it costs a fortune and secondly, the major supermarkets and chemists don't stock this brand anymore and I can only get it from Toys R Us stores, none of which are close by my house AT ALL. The reason I have to get this brand is because none of the others work in her thick hair. But you know what, that's it, she can just have knotty hair and suffer through it being brushed. No more detangle spray if she is just going to pour it out. So furious! Then there is the fact she wont leave her poor brother alone so all I keep hearing is Elliott crying and whinging because Soph is in his face. I keep telling her to leave him alone but she wont so I have sent her outside before I throttle her. I don't care what she is doing, she can be in Mat's shed playing with screwdrivers and saw blades for all I care this morning, just so long as she isn't under my feet pissing me off! 

Sigh, well I tried that happiness is a choice rubbish, perhaps tomorrow morning will be more successful. Thank God I have been able to get my doctors appointment moved forward to today!